Many thanks to you all, so much, for the kind and thoughtful responses. You have all brought up some good points.

Rohag, yes, I am in a different location, and thus would be going to a different ER, so perhaps I should not be so quick to dismiss the ER as an option when the suicidal feelings start to get unbearable.

Byzantine and Madisgram, you both made me realize that perhaps pride and/or a reluctance to really work on my issues is standing in my way. I think that might be the case.

One of the problems is that we've moved so many times. I've been in therapy in four different states now. The thought of starting yet again with a new therapist is exhausting. And yet, sitting here at home, feeling miserable, clearly isn't doing me any good.

I do have a great GP, so I likely will take your suggestion, Byzantine, and ask him for a recommendation.

Many thanks again to you all, and to all the kind folks here at PC. Not sure what I'd go without this site!