grey: i'm sorry i really didnt want to make your heart ache. i dont tend to show my hurt too well and when i did...i feel really bad for it...i you too grey! Honest grey its ok hugs are always really helpful...it means im not alone like i normally am...support is always good. Thank you grey...your post helps....i love my hugs when im feeling this way. I you too, and thank you for listening to me

PH: Thank you!! i dont know if that will be possible PH...i dont want to upset her ot hurt her and right now she has soooo much on her plate i really dont want to add to it....im soo ready to breakdown but i cant....she trusts me with a lot and im not alloud to say anything to anyone but what i have been told is soo upsetting that it kills knowing how she is feeling right now and me adding to it by saying that i want to die and giving up on her...just adds to what shes going through. she really doesnt need me while im soo depressed and down. Thank you PH im just not used to having someone to lean on till i found PC, i would be truely lost without some people on here

Love you both