Thanks (again), so much.

pgrundy, your post didn't sound mean. I think you are right; I just wasn't ready to hear what my therapist was saying. But I feel she irreparably damaged the therapeutic alliance by pushing it so hard, esp. in a combined session with my husband. (We were seeing her for couples therapy as well -- that was probably a mistake.) My two inpatient hospitalizations were just so unhelpful that I feel hopeless about it ever being a positive experience.

Gardengal, thanks for your input on partial hospitalization. Maybe I should give it a try, although since my kids get out of school for the summer in a couple of weeks it won't be a viable option 'til the fall.

I'm waiting back to hear from my GP about his recommendations, and then I'll get back into therapy ASAP. I'm clearly not doing myself any good by sitting at home stewing in my own depressive brew.