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And while your feelings are something that will take a long, long time to learn to cope with, your behavior is something you can learn to control right now.

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Behaviour, I can learn to control my behaviour, but it's really hard to control my behaviour sometimes. If I could control my behaviour all the time, I wouldn't have most of the problems I've been having with people. It's really hard Genevieve, really hard.

You know how hard it is for people with eating disorders to change their behaviour right? It feels like the same for me. I know my behaviour is dangerous and hurts people, but I still do it.

I have to learn to replace my current behaviours with better ones. I've got to do it until it becomes second nature.

Sometimes I wonder...I wonder if I really do want to go to the hopital again, to escape life and yell and scream and just lose control. It's not good for me to escape life like that...it's usually counterproductive to hospitalize people with BPD. I have to learn to deal with things.

Right now I think I need to learn some relaxation techniques...