<font color="purple"> I know it will be ok and that I am doing the right thing but MAN! I am getting sooooo nervous and scared and anxious about starting therapy again. It is different this time, I know this time will be more about being honest with myself as well as with my T.... That is sacry. I plan on sharing my journal and poetry pieces, I plan on staying in T for the long term and no more short term desperation quick fixes, I plan on being up front with the T about my history of not following thru , of running..... Trouble is much of what i plan on doesnt turn out to be what I actually do.... But I know I will have to stick with it in order to be helped...... The scariest part is that this time my hubby is not allowed to be by my side at all times. They are insisiting that I do most if not all of this on my own, he come with me, just not in the sessions with me..... He is my safety perosn and not having him right beside me sacres me to death, but I also know that i probably wouldnt be as open if he was right there next to me as I would be afraid of what he thought about some things that I would say or feel , experienced and so on........ I can do this, I can do this, I CAN DO THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!! </font>