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Grab a kitchen timer and pace yourself -- "I can still have hysterics, but I have to wait three minutes first before I express them."

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Do you really think I'm hysterical? I think what you mean is that I express myself in ways that are not the norm here. I have to learn to express myself in ways that will result in more positive outcomes.

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Actually, I very much doubt that. What's more, that really feels like hostility directed at me, GreenLeaves.

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I think you may be seeing something that isn't there. I just wanted to make you understand how difficult it is for me. I respect that eating disorders are extremely difficult to overcome and complex, as is BPD. I'm not saying they are the same at all...just that it's difficult to overcome. You offer wonderful advice to me, but sometimes it seems like people expect me to change just like that...I can't.

It just seems like people think that if I get help everything will be OK. Well...newsflash...I'm already getting very good help. I've gotten psychotherapy for years. I've been on meds for years. I've slowly...very slowly gotten better but people still complain that I need more help. No one notices that I'm doing better. It just seems like I'm never good enough. I just want people to accept me the way I am. I'm not going to be able to change overnight. This is going to takes years and years. Nothing, not even seeing a T twice a week for years will create much of a dent in my behaviour. I've gotten a lot of help. I'm still the way I am.

What happens when I decided to see a T twice a week and I'm still the way I am? What will people say then?