I am very sorry Troy, thats terrible. I honestly don't know what to say at the moment. It is normal to feel like you feel, I would feel that way too. I did have a marriage coucelor die and he was healthy and was murdered. I guess you would have to think what she would have said about that kind of loss Troy. If you knew her than it may be a good way to think about what she may say to comfort you. What did she say about the loss of your friends.