I feel so crazy, so broken, in the aftermath of this rupture with T. I feel like I'm too "borderline" for T, and that scares the $hit out of me, because she is the best DBT specialist in the area. There is no one else for me to see that isn't in her practice. My case manager told me yesterday that she would do therapy with me if I leave my T, but...she is a nice person, but she's not even a T. She certainly has experience with bpd, but she doesn't have the training.

It's just...if I'm too bpd for DBT to work, how will anything, ever, help??