Could you have a family member watch them while you go in? CPS will likely try to place them with family instead of in a foster home. I know what it is like to hide it from your family. I did the same thing, wanted them to think that I was ok. When I finally told them, they were very supportive. I know that if I have to ever go back in, that someone is there to take care of my child. Sometimes we just need that extra help of the hospital, if you are in that place, ask your family. Do what you need to do to take care of yourself and your children. Feel free to PM me anytime.