i really have no reaon to be.i know others have so much more reason and i have none.i have a T who aparently cares about me,hell according to most my live is a darn walk in the park.but i cut myself at work today,a total accident.but it looks like something i would have done.and i am struggling to not cut it deeper.my mind is crazy over this and why.it is short sleve weather and it is like i have an excuse to be able to get away with it and just tell T i did it at work.i have still never been able to tell her i still SI and i am scared of summer comming and i wont be able to do it as easy.i have also been doing so well not doing this .was kind of proud of this.although it is the general idea i have no reason to be doing this seeing as my life is perfect and compairitively speaking.why am i having such a hard time not doing thisso angry tonight because i want to do this so bad and i cant get away from this.i'm sorry this post is so angry but this is how i feel.i just cant handle fluff and love right now.know i will hate me more tomorrow but now i'm just angry