I can't hold this feeling inside..I gotta get it out. We were together for 4 years and she left me because I'm bipolar. She couldn't take it anymore. I'm heartbroken, but I understand. What's eating me alive is that she was already seeing someone else before she left me. She hooked up with Sam in California while she was on vacation and now that jerk is in my house..right now. That was MY life 2 months ago and I feel replaced. Kristy is still my best friend so everyday I go thru the process of letting go of this and holding onto that. It's exhausting. I'm not sorry I met her, but I know in my heart that I can't go thru this again. 90% of bipolar relationships fail..I'd rather face that reality and spare myself a lot of grief.