I just sent the weirdest e-mail to my T! Ahhhhh she's gonna think I'm really losing it now I feel like I'm about to lose my mind. I'm looking for the meaning of life all over the Internet. Maybe I need to be enlightened and move to India? But I will doubt anything that comes my way. Because I think my brain is playing a game with me. I can't think, can't sleep, don't want to go on another day like this. But tomorrow I need to wake up to just another day. I need therapy 24/7, and yet I want to quit. How can anyone get better while facing your demons? Answer that one! How can I find a new job and be successful with this depression and all the anxiety and fear? I just want to hide. I'm crawling into that black hole and please let me stay there for sometime. I can't seem to find the meaning. I give up!! Fine.....if you think I whine, vent, complain..... maybe I'm crazy? They all say it will get better, but what else would one say? "No, it won't get better you might as well shoot yourself?" Grrrrrrrrrr, and it's all up to me!

Oh, btw is there a limit to how many icons you can put in a msg? Maybe I'll get banned for complaining too much (((((