Despite having many ups and downs with my health starting at the age of 23 and I'm turning 29 soon I was able to get myself through school and last year I got my BA in social work. I took longer than I wanted but I got my degree!! There is a falling out between myself and my family and there are so many hurtful things being said but what hurt me the most is when I had to hear her say to me: Why can't you get your life together already, you're almost 30 when can you get on your own!
Its not my fault that I sudden had epilepsy and for the first few years the doctor kept pulling me out of school and work. Its not my fault that the doctor took my driver license away. Its not my fault that the doctor couldn't figure out for the first few years what was wrong with me and how they continue to try out multiple medication to make me better. Its not my fault that my life depends on the support of others.
She indirectly kicked me out of her home when I had called the cops on my dad and brother because my brother had put me in a head lock and my dad continued to threaten to physically hurt me. My father is a drunk and my brother is a hopeless cause. She is the type to keep the dysfunction behind close doors but when I called the cops and ran to the neighbors for safety she hated me for that and told me I'm the problem of the family and she doesn't believe me that my brother chocked me. When I asked her where am I suppose to live she told me I can stay there still but she doesn't know anything about my father and brother hurting me. I was left out in the cold regardless. It was either I stay there and I wont have her support in anyway to stand up for me or I have to pick up my things and leave. Either way I'm out on my own. What hurts me the most is that I'm in the process of getting my surgery for my seizures and everyone knew that. That was way I moved back home because I knew I was going to need their support as I recover and financial support bc I lost my job in January.
She doesn't care about the status of my health and at the same time she critize me for everything I've achieved. How can she just abandon me like that. How can she defend my drunk father over and over again. How come its so easy for her to leave me out in the cold and always defend my brother who is good for nothing! He's the one that got into a DUI and got $19000 and hasn't done anything with it but spend it on drugs, beer and girls. She still allow him to do all of that in her home. Here I am the daughter that has overcome things and has moved on in life but she criticizes me!!
It really breaks my heart!!
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