As an adult, I seem to always choose the wrong friends. Something ends up happening and we end our friendship badly. I tend to only befriend people who think they are better than me and when I get sick of being put down or being used I end the friendship. Usually, the end of the friendship is when I basically go off on them. For example, my father was very ill and dying. I took it pretty hard although we were not that close in my adult life. My hair started to fall out to the point where you could see it. I got extensions to cover of the spots. To make a long story short, my so called friend and her husband preceded to make fun of me. During their sons birthday party I felt totally attacked and humiliated to the point where I left the party. The things they were saying to me were unreal. Although, she apologized I feel like I can not be friends with her anymore.
Being her friend feels like being a follower. I participate in all of the activities she wants to try but not vice-versa. Her son beats my son up and she doesn't make him apologize or discipline him at all. Her husband even laugh at my son because he was crying! She is always competing with me. We recently purchased a new home and she had nothing good to say about it. I mean I was not looking for any compliments or anything but it was uncalled for to make rude comments.
I am just disappointed I can not find a true, genuine friend. Maybe my standard's are too high. Is it possible to find a friend who is happy for her friends and not jealous? Who disciplines their children and not treat them like they are better than others and therefore can treat them with disrespect? Who doesn't have Caddy comments for her "friends" and who are not selfish?
What am I doing wrong to attract these kinds of people because this is not the first time. It has to be me!
Or am I being too hard on my friend?