Update. I called her last night and told her that I am not ready to be engaged. She replied by saying "Thanks for telling me". After that call, I started getting bombarded with phone calls endlessly by her which I did not answer. Then the doorbell rang. I opened the door and she said "look into my eyes and tell me it is over" and I said " it is over". Then she got into her car and spun off. I feel kind of bad but I didn't like having my hand forced. I hope I can stay strong. Thanks for your words of wisdom and encouragement.