I know its not a punishment. here they dont see arresting for making threats and or actions of self harm and suicide they see it as getting people who would not otherwise get help for themselves get and recieve the help that they need.

I find it interesting that you say here on this threat that you mean what you say when you threaten these things but in real time with therapists they know you dont mean them.

That right there in my opinion tells me that you CAN control yourself especially within the sight so to speak of a therapist so I am choosing to leave this thread and whether or not you willfully choose to take the steps to control yourself just like in my opinion you are choosing whether or not to not control yourself outside of the sight of therapists. good luck and take care.