It's ok... maybe the only one who has the answer is the T??? And he seems to be trying very hard to help me realize it... I am just not connecting all the dots, imo. sigh.

Thank you all for your continued support, I really do need it and appreciate it.

(Bebop... I have been unable to work for 19 years... you'd think I'd figured this one out by now! I keep dreaming, and becoming overwhelmingly sad about it.)