Just wondering. For a couple days now I've wanted to post things, and as soon as I'd finish I'd say "no this isn't important" and delete it. Even in therapy there are things I won't mention because I feel they aren't important.. and even if they are, I somehow don't want them to be. I want my depression and feelings to be the result of a vitamin deficiency or of things I know for a fact that happened, or even just puberty. There are things in my past that I wonder about, worry about repressed memories or stuff like that but I keep saying not to get into it because it isn't important.

Is it really that important to be honest with yourself, to let yourself get curious and dig through the past..? I don't want to do so much digging that maybe I remember something and realize that my mother's boyfriends were more than just pushy, rude jerks without a face in my memory. I'd rather not know.. But when I went to my Dad about something I was worried about in my past he told me not to force myself to remember anything if it isn't there. This might've been a bad way to word some reassuring advice but.. It made me worry if there really is something I should be concerned about, but even if there is, should I even bother concerning myself about it if I don't remember?