Sannah,

YES, YES EXACTLY!!

When i get into too much pain in therapy, i feel like i need someone to rescue me, and feeling dissociated and small when it happens, desire my t to comfort me. But she wants me to learn to comfort myself. And when i am not sufficiently able to do that, then i feel like i am back in my childhood going through things i can't tolerate and no one to come to my rescue or help.

It really scares me because it's like reliving those situations over again where my emotions are out of control and terrifying and i can't stop them.