he keeps saying he will, and part of me believes him.. but i cant wait around.
i know he is disrepecting both of us, i mainly feel guilty because ive been cheated on before and i know what its like, and if his poor girlfriend ever found out id really just hate myself. it already makes me hate myself

its so hard to say ill not meet him, because it will be hard to. im off now for summer, with a few exams in june really, so im going to be free and at home, and ill really want to see him...

i have said to him that i will understand if he wants to remain single for a while after breaking up with his girlfriend, and he said that he will be ready to move on as soon as they are over. he then asked me to my school Formal/Prom.

i feel like i should run and hide, and let it blow over, but i dont want to lose him instead, im scared incase he chooses her if i stop talking to him.