Hi moonbeam,

Thanks for the kind words. I was in a slightly elevated mood when I posted last night so many things were rushing through my head and they all came out with a 'whoosh' on this page

The two friends I'm talking about are not outwardly rejecting me but the signs are there and from what they say and their facial expressions I sense an impatience that I don't have better control over my mind...it makes me uncomfortable and doesn't exactly make me feel good about myself when I'm with them. But my other friend whom does know (she's a childhood friend and has known me far longer than the other two), she has a loved one with a mental illness and always encourages me.

But even she doesn't really understand my ups and downs, and yes, it would be better for me to join a support group. There isn't one in my town but there is one in another town and I've decided to sign up for that. Thanks for the encouragement, will let you know how the support group meeting turns out.

Take care
Sunshine