I can see your frustration, but I think your doc is right. You have to take one step at a time-see what you can handle and what could be a potential trigger for stress. My boyfriend recently got a new job and we've been trying to save money for a house and a wedding and it has definitely triggered some BP issues with him. We came to the conclusion that until he reaches a stable point with his meds and his health (mental and physical), that stuff can stay on the back burner. You want to be able to enjoy your job and the freedom of your own space, so take it easy until you know your limits. Good luck!