this reply might be triggering too, at least a bit -- I've kind of had this problem too, except for me it's whenever someone touches my head. My son tries mess up my hair when he's playing around and it makes me crazy. It's not his fault, and he doesn't understand and couldn't because he's too young, but to me it's like a reflex, like I'm defending myself still years after my head was forced down by those who attacked me. So I have to leave the room and be alone for a while. I get angry too that I get angry and afraid about it. But I think it's just me angry at them and needing to lash out. Because I can't reach them, I need to vent some other way. But until I figure that out, my head needs to be left alone and I need to forgive myself for being afraid and getting angry.

I guess this is the long way of saying I can relate to your frustration. Try not to be so angry at you. It's not fair to you.

Be well.

mtd