i am really having a hard night (memories, PTSD stuff) and relieved that we got a little text from her tonight saying she got back from out of town safely today; her other project is done today. said she is tired but ok.
but she didn't answer our question about if she's ever going to see us again... .... didn't answer our question about if she ever wants to talk to us again, didn't say anything about that
our hearts are already broken from having this relationship so....so... cracked open for the past month. it has been so hard. i am sitting here near tears for the past few hours just because of not knowing what's going to happen
i just feel so abandoned and alone lately
i know she's so busy and tired but i just wish things could get b ack to normal.... we haven't had a normal session in her office since the last week of march and this just keeps getting harder and harder as time goes by
if she wasn't such an amazing therapist in the 1st place it wouldn't be such a big deal i guess...but for the past 1.5 years she has just been so incredible...now to have NO support for so long just ... i feel like we have been sinking and sinking