Omers - I am so sorry! It's not your fault. I want to validate your feeling, but at the same time let you know that you have nothing to feel "yucky" about. I am not sure what that T's intentions were, but it sounds like you feel violated. I believe you are justified in feeling that way. Could you practice how you would tell massage T to kinda desensitize yourself to the conversation? I think it would help and like you said she would support you. Sending you all kinds of support and good wishes!