I really think that the whole "trust in the process" thing translates into "trust in yourself". You're likely not as broken as you think. I mean you are still here, still sane, still trying. That indicates strength and courage to me.

I can almost promise that what we think we create - if you do not believe that you can be helped, then you will not allow the help you need.

Case in point, you're letting your therapist believe that he is helping you, when he isn't. Maybe if you were honest with him about how you felt, then perhaps you two could work together to find a therapeutic modality that would help you. He may be a one trick pony, but most therapists aren't.

They aren't mind readers either, so if you're telling him things are okay, well then that's what he's going to think.

Socializing is hard. Especially if you're carrying the feeling that you are broken. I think that translates into the thought that you don't deserve friends or to belong to a community of people. I strongly urge you to challenge that broken feeling, or at least recognize that others likely feel the same way.

Everyone pretty much carries the same insecurities and worries. All conversation involves vulnerability. But it is worth the risk for both parties.

I think starting out with people that you already share a common interest with is a great way to start building a community of friends for support and love.

What do you like? What makes you happy? Move toward that and I think you will find hope again.