Thanks everyone! I think I would function better on a lower dosage of medications, such as 5mg of Abilify, rather than 10 mg. I don't think my psychiatrist would allow it since it hasn't even been a year since I was last in the hospital. I don't think he trusts my judgment of how much medications I think I need. He wanted me to be on 20mg of Abilify, and he thought I was functioning well, but I was so sedated and dysfunctional that I requested a medication change. While tapering off the Abilify to switch to Risperdal, I started feeling weights lifted off my mind and I could think more clearly. I intend to tell my psychiatrist that I'm functioning better on 10 mg of Abilify, although I feel I could be even better on a lower dosage, but I don't think my psychiatrist will allow 5mg because that would seem to low. I'm trying to gain the trust of my psychiatrist that I am sane and capable. I think the medications have done some damage to my brain. I don't feel as ambitious as I use to, feeling very low motivation. My memory has worsened and I can't read as well as I use to. Hopefully, everything will one day start to return to normal for me.