I'm afraid we are beyond any healing. That is what she keeps telling me. She basically wants nothing to do with me anymore. For which I cannot blame her. I made mistakes as well as her, but she thinks I crossed a line.

Today is just a bad day for me because she is out with her friends. I always develop a paranoia that she is with her guy friend and making plans to leave. Now I'm all alone for the day and my friend wants me to go get fitted for a tux for his wedding. I really don't want to go out today. So i'm just kind of sitting here running through all of this in my mind.

Long day for sure.