I had to giggle, I was scrolling down to reply and suggest that maybe you are "in your head" too much and saw your location!

I know that I can tend to fall into the trap of over thinking things.

Could you work with your T on some things to help calm the anxiety? Sometimes we have to get the symptoms under control before we can work on the cause.

I "worked" with my first T for 3 years. Honestly she kinda served as my diary... just a place where I could dump day to day stuff but couldn't really open up to her. But I was also living in an abusive home and needed to know that if I needed out someone could verify my stories. She stayed by my side, faithful, caring and supporting in any way I would let her. I never did get to a place of being able to work with her. She is now a dear friend and mother figure. I can confide in her about anything at her kitchen table as long as she is just her. I still couldn't open up to her as a therapist.

The next T I worked with bluntly put what I needed to work on in my face 5 minutes into the first session. I knew her for all of 5 minutes at most and she blasted me with "so what is your history with SA?" BOOM. It was right there, no getting around it. My eyes must have gotten huge and all the blood must have left my face! She said if it was too soon we could talk about it in a few minutes. A few minutes???? Long story short she was one of the best Ts I have worked with. I needed someone who would be very directive, blunt and in my face. Now she wasn't the wicked witch of the west either though... She would offer me tea and hugs on the way out the door. But when she "made" me talk about all these really hard emotional things she acted like I was talking about tomorrows weather. It was the best way for me to work.

I am not saying you need to change Ts. It might help to really think about what you need to be able to open up. What kind of person/T would you feel safest with? What kind of people are you most comfortable hanging with? Do you confide in anyone? If you do what kind of person are they? If not try to imagine a person that you would be able to open up with. Then bring the list to your T and see if they can be more of what you need. If not see if they know someone who can.