Greetings all
Well, here I am now its been a week since I posted re-needing a place to be acountable as my goal is to wean myself off my meds.
So far, so good. Had a dip that was directly related to an incident and cam out of that (with some learning-I did some behavior that I didn't feel the greatest about) and For the past few days I have been feeling more positive, and better about myself.
I start a new job in a week. I will start travel nursing to various ER's. First in my state, then will visit others. I will be doing 12 hour night shifts which historically I don't cope the best with night shifts-chronic tired, *****yness etc. So I will not go down any more on my med doses until I get a few weeks under my belt and adjust. I just really want to see that I can now do all of my moods/experiences on my own without medicine. I think I am ready. I think I had a time in my life (almost a year and a half now) when I needed them, But I am no where near where I was. I am so much better now. I do have a date to start with a counsilor in June-I hope with my new schedule I can make it-the counsior was scheduling 2 months out for a new pt. I really don't want to wait until Aug.
Anyhow, I know this is somewhat of a long and boring post, but it is part of what I will do to keep accountalbe to what I am truly doing with my meds and my moods. So to all of you who might read this thanks-hope all is well with you!