Oh, sweetheart!!! I'm so sorry... what an awful thing to happen to you.

There was a time when I was younger when I had a terrible run of bad luck. Within a year, I was raped, then two of my best friends from school died, one of cancer, the other was raped and murdered. Then my mother killed herself, and my Grandad died... and I heard one of the other girls in my college joking about it... she said, "we should put a warning up, 'ring of death surrounds M... B...'" At the time I thought it was my fault, I believed I was cursed. I couldn't make friends with anyone. It had always been very difficult for me, but the loss of the only two girls I'd been friendly with really cut me, and my family members dying so shortly after was the final nail in the coffin.

But believe me, it's not always going to hurt like that. You will get past it (that's not to say you'll get over it, you'll always feel the hurt when you think about it.) At least, hang onto this... she was newly wed, she was on her honey moon, she died happy. And she wished the very best for you, she wanted you to be happy too.

Hang onto that. Happiness is attainable... don't give up. She wouldn't have given up on you. Don't you give up on yourself.