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Originally Posted by WikidPissah
This resonates with me so much, because I am currently in this place myself. Isn't it amusing that when you really decide it to be "done" with a T, it is. I am glad you are finding some peace in all of this.
Taking care of the inner child...that's awesome, I've yet to come to the place that I can think of mine without hating her. You give me something to think about working towards.
Good luck zoo...I hope the peace stays.
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I hope it does, too. Or that it comes again, as it will surely go, like all emotions.
It has taken me a long time to be able to think very much about my inner child. A long time.
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Originally Posted by poetgirl76
Interesting that you felt lighter......liberty in making the right decision maybe?
I love this last statement too, profound!
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that's the thing, I think it was the liberation of knowing there
isn't a right decision. Knowing that took away a lot of worries and self-doubt.
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Originally Posted by googley
(((((((((((((Zoo))))))))))))))
I'm glad that you were able to make a decision. I believe in you. I hope that you stay in contact with us here at PC if you feel that it is a good decision for you. We care about you so much.
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Oh, googley, I plan on staying here, regardless of what happens with T. Unless it turns out to be too painful, reading about other people's sessions if I'm not going to my own. We'll see.
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Originally Posted by WePow
(((((Zoo))))) Sometimes the only way forward is to take a step back.
It sounds like you are trying to do what is best for little Zoo. That is vital.
As you know, therapy should heal us, not hurt us. It hurts to heal sometimes, but when the bottom line is more pain than healing, it may be time to move to a different way of doing things.
BIG hugs to you and little Zoo !!!
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thank you, wepow. You are such a strong and wise person. It means a lot to me to know that you understand what I'm doing. Also, reading your posts has shown me that it's okay to say "that's it, I'm done with T forever this time" and then still find the strength or the will to go back. It helps me to know it's ok to change my mind as many times as I need to.
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Originally Posted by TayQuincy
I think sometimes when we are in the most pain, that's when the real breakthroughs come.
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this process, as incredibly painful as it has been, has taught me a LOT and made me stronger and moved me a long in my recovery. I can see that, even though I hate to admit it because I still have a lot of hurt and anger towards my T for how this all went down.
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Originally Posted by jexa
I love so many of the things you have said here. About taking care of that little girl, making that commitment to her that you will take care of her and protect her and that you will never leave her. About not drowning, you can just stand up in the water, you are okay, you can breathe.. That imagery especially zoo, is so incredibly powerful. I can't tell you how happy I am to hear that this is the place you are finding yourself right now.
Thank you for sharing this with us. I will think of you and your little girl today, and send healing thoughts toward you both  |
and Jexa, thank you, too. Your words I bolded above made me feel like I have some more room to breathe, that if those feelings of peace and strength don't stay every moment it doesn't mean they weren't real, it doesn't mean they won't come back. I'm not sure if that makes sense to anyone but in my head it does.
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