Thankyou all for taking your time to read my post and thanks for the advice. I have been thinking a lot about seeing advice lately. It would be so good to sit down with someone like a therapist and tell them everything, I've never told anyone everything before. I've just got to plck up the courage to see my doctor and ask for a referal.. (she's a little daunting). Hopefully I won't have to tell HER a lot about myself or my past, maybe she will just refer me if I tell her what I've been feeling lately. Well I will only know if i try. I'll keep you posted as to how I go on. And thanks again.

x x x sparkle