((((((Zoo))))))

Yes. It IS ok to have both emotions - the need to be with T and the need to not be with T.

A big part of healing in therapy is growing up emotionally. Learning how to take care of little Zoo is a big part of that process. The thing is that you (and I) are almost like emotional teens trying to raise a young sibbling. We desire the adult ability to handle these things in healthy ways, but we still don't have the skills.

Allow yourself this space and room to grow. Ts know that this is all a part of the healing journey.