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Well my aunt left Friday morning about 9AM on the 13th. She is at peace but i am very heavy with sadness. She enjoyed the flowers but did not read the letter. i left messages on the answering machine, but...Now as of today the 14th of May, i will not be able to attend the memorial service. It is only for an hour or less and it would take too much to travel with a handicapped 88 yr. Mom. Plus the expense of trying to get to a small city in the end is not worth it. Thus i never got to hug her good-bye. Now i will not make the memorial service either. My Mom says we should have visited her long before now. But that was not as simple as sounds. When things were getting worse for her i had mom's fall to deal with and her recovery. i am running myself ragged trying to do it all for my mom to show her how much i love her yet.....yet she is preventing my growth and always has. So i am angry my aunt got her way and as usual i am left with a lot of pent up emotions. While she did not say this too me, i feel as if i did not mean that much to her. It was so hard trying to tell her how much she meant to me over the phone....i had to quickly cut to the essentials. Anyway, just wanted to let everyone know my aunt is gone.
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