That's so odd that they wouldn't make an appointment in person. I never heard of that. Can you go to a different doctor? Or, can you call from a pay phone or phone booth?

It sounds like you could have a physical problem or just need eyeglasses, so you definitely should be checked out first for anything physical. If it turns out to be depression, it's not so bad. There's lots of good meds and it's manageable in most cases. If you ignore it though, even if it's 'just' depression, it can get really bad pretty fast, so I wouldn't put off getting checked out.

You know something is not right--you know your body and your own self better than anyone!

Good luck. If at first you don't succeed, try, try again!