I shared my situation in the New Member Introduction area a while back. My hubby died of cancer in Feb. and I am at a loss. I thought I was starting to do better, but this evening, I feel myself spiraling downward into a dark depression, and it's scaring me. People, he loved me, always put my happiness before his, thought I was beautiful, was my companion in everything. The loss is hitting me hard tonight. How am I going to live the rest of my life without his love? I'm so lonely without him. I don't think I'll ever find again what I had with him. I just have a lonely life stretching before me, and I don't even see the point in living it. I'm afraid.

Thanks for listening. I guess I just need a place to put what I'm feeling into words and maybe get some feedback.