Thanks, Perna. That's interesting about your stepmother and you. I want to clarify. I was never threatened to be hit, only my brother was. Yes, I agree that it's important for therapy!

ellimay: Thanks! I don't want my T to hit me, or at least not hurt me. I think there's the wanting to be punished aspect, and the spanking part. Maybe separate fantasies, but both transference.

I think hitting kids is wrong also. But what about "spare the rod, spoil the child?" Maybe I was jealous that my brother got punished and I didn't? He got more attention? I'm not sure if he actually got spanked very much, but I remember my Dad's strap hanging over the closet door. My Dad was a mild-mannered person, and so was my Mom. I know that spanking, though I'm not sure about the belt, was common. Again, I'm not trying to condone it, just explain!