I have never wanted him to touch me in any way, but I can relate to this by wanting him to get angry with me when I confessed stuff like not eating or whatever. It was confusing because I'm terrified of anger yet I wanted him to express it. I think now that it was because I was only ever used to getting either anger or nothing at all as a reaction from my parents, so if there's no anger, it meant I was going to be ignored. Instead, my T was just calm and said we could work through it. At first I was a little disappointed and confused, but since he's had what's best for me in mind so far, I'm just going to trust him on it.

And I'll also verify that, yes, spankings and belts were very common, so much so that many many people assumed they were perfectly okay.