Thanks Guys~ Thats sorta what I ended up doing today too. Venting.

I've been a bit peeved at the fact that since I was dx'd I havent recieved any info on how to handle my disorder. You know all the ups and downs of the moods and such. I told him that I needed info, something concrete on how to handle things. And I also talked about how I was getitng nervous about my appt tomorrow . Somewhere in there when we were talking... Ohhh man this gets me ...my T mentioned something about being cyclothymic. I was like WHAT???? I was told this past summer that I was full blown bp2. He does not have that on his records!!!!!! So its sorta up in the air now about what I do have! I am so pissed at my T and my pdoc for not having things wrote down , or whatever !!!!! I am going to make a request that I get copies of all my files now. I want to know what is up with everything. Also being that I have issues with how I had to go to the hospital last time. I have made it known that either it will be on my terms IF I do go again..or I will keep hiding how I Feel. So now my T wants me to get an Advanced Directives drawn up.That way I do have control over the situation.I feel by doing that I am setting myself up for failure.. which is also a big trigger to me. I sat there for that whole session with my arms crossed, and my leg bopping up and down. And I was feeling so angry and hurt by all this . I am just fed up!