I could relate to your story...desiring good social friends, a guy, but at the end of your post you mentioned you didn't want to fail your therapist. I think therapy is very hard work and brings us to unexpected places, sometimes fast and we have to take a hard look at ourselves to integrate it all and decide what applies and can help us, and what doesn't. Maybe find a creative outlet you like, art or music? After 5 years in therapy, going back once after a crisis, I'm seriously thinking of getting out; my therapist recently changed my diagnosis because too many clients were staying too long. It is normal to feel attachment to a therapist you've grown to trust. I don't think you will have failed your therapist if you move on.