I had an awesome weekend. Great end to a great day and tminus 3 day before im off to NY.

I come home and my dads drunk again..... Im so ****ing confused, Im wondering what I did.....

He always abuses me emotionally when he's drunk and now I feel so horrible. I feel so depressed. It's been maybe 3 weeks maybe a lil less since I last cut and I've felt so great lately...This completely ruined it and now I wanna cry but the most obvious reason is I wanna cut.....

And its obvious I don't want to because I came on here for support.

Help...Someone.