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Originally Posted by isolatedentity
Yes, the key to it all is other people; what if they are few and powerless to make a difference. I have read a few pleadings and rantings, and a few observations and sincere replies, and just want to see what possible support there can be here .
I am a mid 40's man, single, one adult kid on their own. I have always tried to be and do good; and was always fortunate to have abilities and resources.
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But, is this really all there is?
I know I that there are those more deserving or needing attention and care, but I would welcome comments ideas and encouragement; just don't be mean or cruel. There's enough of that inside my head directed at myself already.
Thank you for your time,
IE
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I think a lot of life is enjoying simple day-to-day pleasures. I've had a big corporate job, early retirement, world travel, three husbands, each with many good & a few bad qualities, no children, but all of my family are still alive including my late eighties mom & dad. And I have quite a few friends. But still, like so many PC members, I suffer from recurrent MDD. I still get suicidal thoughts, despite therapy and heavy meds. But I've learned the things that make life the most enjoyable are the simple things--talking to a female cardinal who dropped in on the lanai rail yesterday, seeing a rainbow last Friday as hubby drove thru Chicago towards the airport in the rain, having a good game of cards with friends. The trappings don't matter much--having a roof over your head and a window to see the sky and someone to share somethings with is what is important.
You have resources; you don't seem overly worried about finding a job, so if that is possible, it doesn't really matter what kind of job it is. You will no doubt meet some new people and some you'll like and some you won't. You'll find a way to enjoy most of them, I'll bet. As long as you have a roof over your head and feel safe, that is what matters. If you have to downscale your "digs", what does it matter? You may find someone that already has a place into which you can move. Someone who will appreciate you and all that you have learned about yourself and all you have to share. Don't worry too much--let life happen!
You are old enough now to realize that people do get wiser and more capable of dealing with life and others as they age. You are no doubt better than you were when you were younger and did some of the things you did that perhaps you'd change if you could do them over. You can't do anything about that---or tomorrow--but you can control what you do today. Do look ahead, though, to income, continued housing & food & car, etc. so you maintain yourself. But don't be afraid of tomorrow--do your best to prepare yourself for it. Does this help? My gut reaction to what might be helpful for you....from the perspective of a sixty-plus woman sitting in Hawaii, writing to my PC friends.
