Just need to vent.

Yes, I'm mentally ill. Why does that seem to mean that nothing I feel, think or do is valid? Why can't I hurt without it being brushed off as a med issue or just a bout of depression? You're divorcing me, for crying out loud! Am I supposed to take that and be ''ok'' about. Why, when I'm missing our life together, missing you and the kids and the good stuff can I not cry without it being the 'full moon' or my time of the month?!?!

I know I've had anger issues! Believe me, I know what my anger has cost me. Why, though, is my anger about how my life is going right now dismissed with a suggestion thatI 'talk to someone at program' about what's going on? They are wonderful people, but not every feeling of anger is something that I need to be put on a counseling couch for!

And, yes, I struggle with bpd. I know you've been told that people diagnosed with borderline are 'broken' and 'beyond hope'. I know you've been told a lot! Listen to what I am telling you, showing you! I am hurting. I am teary because I am losing a huge part of my life. NOT because I'm trying to manipulate anyone into anything they don't want to do! I recognize that I've done that in the past. I don't do that now. And should I slip and try to manipulate someone, guess what, I will put my big girl britches on and admit it!

In short, I am tired of feeling like I'm being dismissed because my mental illness is a quick and easy excuse for the very real, very valid, very "normal" feelings I am having right now!