was so over whelmed tonite. started last nite and did resist it then and all day today. but tonite it became too much. i wanted to email t but its sunday and her weekend. and was thinking maybe i could email tomorrow but youre supposed to be able to cope alone in between sessions. and t has other clients during the week. so i decided not to email tomorrow or any day. and that left me alone with it and it got more intense and i ended up s/i-ing quite bad.

what are you supposed to do when youre overwhelmed between sessions. are there strategies to use that i dont know about. i mean different than what is listed at the top of this page. those things wouldnt work when im at this point. also i guess you dont need to tell t about this because its part of how you deal with it alone. i thought i was a stronger person than this.