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I think that this is what you are seeing here. Your father is making a statement by all this.
You know, sometimes people do things that we don't understand and it can make our lives feel just like what you are describing. I think what your father is saying in all this is the desks really mean something. To him, it is an object that represents organization and that is something that he wants but just can't seem to get. It is kind of a reminder of what he needs so he collects them.
Now my husband collects boats, thank god I have a big yard. But it means something to him, little reminders of something he likes to do or needs to take time out to do. And he will know it is there for that day he can take off and play around with whatever boat it is. People have a way of doing that and they don't really realize what it all means, not on a real cognitive level.

So, now you ARE the woman in the house, that one that always stays at least for now. And your brother always leaves for a reason too. He just cant take all the sense of the disfunction that is going on and think about when all that started, and then think about when he started doing it.

Now you also have to think about yourself in this picture because your important too. You have been feeling this for a long time too and that is probably why you feel depressed and even overwhelmed.

This is an example of the things that go un-noticed in peoples lives and they end up having a lot of trouble with depression, self esteem, finding meaning to life, hybernating, distancing, and they just can't put their finger on it somehow, just like what your father is doing and it is effecting all of you.

Now, I have had this happen to me too. But I didn't just settle Lfmn. I MADE THE CHANGE TO ALL THIS. And when I did that, it meant something not only to me, but for everyone else around me. Here is the way out, and the way to finding you as well, a beginning of learning how to make something out of what appears to be just one thing. This is something that all of you can learn by your taking an action.

You have only made a statement. You havent tryed to market it. Think about that.
Every time you turn on the TV, some commercials come on and they are trying to Market something. It is all designed to make someone do something, buy an idea or product. Now, you have an idea, you need to figure out how to sell it. Perhaps you could look around at the different things that are there and draw some sketches of how the place could look more like a home arrange it on a piece of paper, part of marketing also. And you may think of one area where he could have one desk and a little space for himself. So, try some marketing stratigies that do respect that about him. Perhaps the idea is to allow him to claim organization a different way. Maybe really watch those what to do with small spaces programs and think about it. Sometimes bookshelves can be used very creatively as particians like a wall that makes a separate space in a room, a place for a desk and a little office.

People sometimes have no sense of structure or how to organize. There are very creative ways to create space in little places. Really neat ideas. I have found that in my life, I was the one who had to create those spaces. The truth is that no matter how small a space is, it can be made into a little home. You know, you are the woman here in this picture now. Find out when that program is on, it is HGTV.

I have some more ideas in my nest post

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