Last session my T and I discussed scary stuff for me to talk about. When I think about it, it makes me want to cut. I have all these mixed up feelings about the topic. I've mentioned before to my T how the whole thing makes me want to cut. I wish I could just get over it. But I know I can't. I know I have to talk about it. It would just be so much easier if it didn't make me want to cut. There are way too many feelings coming up about it. I can't control them. I feel like a failure.