I never used to have this anxiety. I used to be one of those girls who were friends with all the other girls in class. When I was younger I had the charisma to grow up into someone who one might call "popular". I faced bullying and rumours with ease and could turn it all around on the person who started it, I had that confidence, and no one would doubt me.. However, 4 years ago I befriended someone who was extremly emotionally manipulative. She was a friend, but also abusive, and for 4 years she harassed and taunted me, madeit her objective to ruin my life (and she admitted it). Friends who I confinded in she'd "take" and get them to spill all their secrets about me.. I don't speak to her anymore, but she wanders back to harass me from time to time. She's run out of material now, as she has no more access to who I talk to and I know how to get her to leave me alone, but ever since I met her and her presance became toxic I had a real problem being around girls my age.

I know that it's unfair to assume that every girl out there is going to get me or something but I try to combat it and keep friends with girls anyway.. but I'm still on edge and unable to completely let go.