My suggestion is to talk to your mother about how you feel tords her. If she gets hot or doesn't want listen to you, then tell her when she ready to have a relationship with you,to call you. The question is if you can forgive her, the answer is yes but its more of the question is WILL you forgive her. I was in your position once too, but it wasn't my mom it was my sister. I hated hering her voice,her name and anything about her life. It took me about 2 years to get me to acturally talk to her. I came to the realization that I had to decided if i wanted to live with all this hate,anger and disappointment. So I forgave her and it releaved me of alot of anger. My suggestion is don't forgive her for anyone else besides you. I wish you the best of luck.