I wish FOR YOUR SAKE that he would report your ISP to the cops as he did with another poster from there long ago..I think she was in CND too and you would then be FORCED to get the help you need...and your parents would know what all is going on so someone IRL would be there to make sure you get the care you need...That guy IF he wanted to be buds with you would have said something by now. He is being a nice T and not reacting either way...some day he may report you ..I do not think your cyber friends are doing you any favors by telling you the same things they have here back in Nov AND for over a year...the same things you must know by now ...I wish he would report you so you would get help solid professional help from a T who is licensed to do this work...a PDOC every 3 weeks is obviously not enough or this would not be an issue for such a long time...

I also think posting to others JUST to get yourself some support as someone else suggested will not get you far I think people can sense that kind of posting...Post to people you GENUINELY CARE about that will get you support

Oh and I want to add that person the admin guy reported in the end DID get a lot of help and is doing SO much better..thats what I wish for you